Crazy Australians

I forgot to finish my post on last Saturday!
Oh well. I went back to Johns for some drinks. Jamie did NOT want to go, since she wanted to stay at home and play MY Resident Evil 4 game. Heh heh... ^_^
Ah well. As much as I wanted to stay at home and chill with her, I wanted to see John again and visit some more. He's super awesome!
Owen from work and Tammy from work went there. We free-loaded a meal and I played Guitar Hero 3 for the first time ever. I drank a hot apple/rum/cranberry cider all night long. It was great!

Anyways, that's the conclusion for last Saturdays post.

Updates for this week so far. I got through to Cigi from work, on Facebook. She has some photos of me and Jamie from work on her phone. I have almost zero pictures of myself online, and even less of me all dolled up. I need her pics. She says she'll drop off her camera to me at work tomorrow.

I came oh so very close to telling Jamie everything, of how I feel for her, and all that stuff. However, she had a sudden mood shift at work today. Her damn tendonitis is acting up on her again. I think revealing to her that her step-brother loves her and all that would have just upset her during that time at work, especially with her pain.
Once I learn a little more, maybe I'll convince her to let me massage her ankle/leg/and foot area to help relieve and channel away some of the pain. Get well soon, kiddo. Cuz I love ya. More than a friend and adopt-a-brother.

I'm talking to a super cool person from Australia. She's shy and crazy and outgoing. Wierd, huh? She's been a great friend on one of the forums I harass every day.
I won't use her name yet, but she and I have been talking about lots of things. Taboo subjects, feelings, etc.. She herself has a strange life and situation like I do, and we have a few things and interests in common. I really like her, and from our live conversations so far, she thinks I'm pretty cool too.
She's telling me that Jamie probably already knows how I feel for her, and she is probably just waiting for confirmation on how I feel, so she can make a decision.
God! I just want to slam my head into the wall! I'm fighting myself. Yes, I'm horny. Yes, I'm a nut! But, I also genuinely care and am attracted to her, her spirit, her personality, her dreams, goals, fears, and everything else. I can fight with her, feel bad, care enough to want to change, and make things right again.
She motivates me, inspires me, to want to make my future more than just another dull day of being the family slave. She makes me want to make my own life, to be on my own, and to be happy. I want to have her be happy with me, though. To hold me, and cuddle together on rainy days. To say goodbye for work each morning, and give a super big tackle-glomph when we gget home again. I have fun playing with her, joking around, being serious... I don't think I'll ever learn everything that's special about her, even if I see her every day until the day I die. She truly captivates me. Every detail in my day-to-day life reminds me of her. Coveralls at work looks like her from behind, the 7-11 store in the morning where she used to work, her friends and family, her smile and laugh. How she flirts all the time, and is shy the rest.
Truly I'm hopeless. ^_^

Gah, I made my Aussie friend late for work. Lol, she and I were talking right now.
She wakes up for work about the same time i start to head off to bed. At 10 pm-ish. That's why I been staying up till 11, and being tired at work in the morning, lol! All from a girl (many girls in my life).
Apparently our conversation was once again too interesting for her to keep an eye on the clock. Poor crazy Aussie girl, with auburnish-red hair...

K, later peeps. Bedtime.