I just got home a few hours ago. Boy, I hate the Fort. It's so claustrophobic here.
I checked my bank account, to see how much money I have after the automatic deductions hit me. Yikes! I had only 5 dollars left in it. I deposited my last 100 dollars into the bank, so that should keep the next deductions fed until I get a paycheck (I hope).
I'm a little stressed right now. Being home isn't always the happy place I want it to be. I feel frustrated, trapped, and disappointed right now.
I wanted to watch a ChildrinRSkary flash, but it seems that I'm now blocked to the site. I can't even listen to the podcasts on Crookedsixpence from my computer. It seems that Katy must have had my I.P. address blocked, so I can't access her sites anymore. I'm a little disappointed; all I did was discover her secret blog and reveal it to two people. Shee-eesh. Now I'm blocked, banned, ignored... It's not like I posted porn or viruses on her site, or personally showed up at her door at her home or anything like that. She's going too far. She's denying me from contacting my friends on her site forums, and listening to her podcasts. I E-mailed an apology to her, posted them on the internet for everyone to see, and she just goes on and on and on to punish me. Well, so be it. As much as it annoys me, life goes on, and my life doesn't stop just because I'm being blocked. Still, it adds to a growing list of frustrations of coming home after a long vacation and hoping to relax with some familiar sites.
There's a palpable aura in my town, and it's keeping me from eating my supper. Seriously, I have no hunger what-so-ever. I tried a single bite of food, and it just doesn't appeal to me. I'm just stressed right now.
I have to get a job right away. I think that's what's bugging me the most. I have a long list of automatic deductions for my bank account, and I have no current pool of money to deal with it. One hundred dollars, that won't last long. I need to make enough money to keep my bills happy, and allows me to take the first week of August off so I can go back to B.C. for a week to re-visit my family there.
I have a leak in my trucks fuel tank somewhere that needs to be fixed. I also have to get my lower rad hose fixed, as it's leaking too. My transmission oil was low before I drove home, so I need to find out why it dropped in the first place. Sigh... Problems, problems, problems...
None of my friends are here in town to greet me home, the weather is too crappy to go for a hike, I feel trapped and miserable... World of Warcraft, an online game I play, isn't working... I can't go to two of my favourite sites... What a miserable day.
I loaded all the pictures and videos of my B.C. trip onto my computer. I'm trying to upload my video onto my Google Video account. I got one 99 percent uploaded, then my computer froze.
My guts ache in frustration, I'm shaking in frustration, and I'm just feeling nothing but more frustration. It's like an uncomfortably hot gush of rage spilling from within me with no-where to go. It's 10 pm here and I have nothing to do and no means of turning off my head and body.
I'm gonna maybe go run out for a slurpee from 7-11. Maybe the walk will do me some good, and some ice in my belly will soothe the savage beast within.
Later peeps. I'm hoping my next post is more positive.
P.S. Katy, please stop.
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