It's called: Better Days.
I fell in love with this comic as soon as I read the first page.
http://www.jaynaylor.com/betterdays/archives/chapter-1-honest-girls/
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
[ /apologize ]
Well, first of all, I'll apologize to my dad, for being terribly and brutally honest without holding anything back. I didn't mean to make my last post sound like an attack, but really, I don't want to meet new people in my life, unless I stumble across them on my own.
He met a very nice lady, who he thought would be super-awesome for me to chat with, since I DO like talking to some people online.
I'm giving her a chance to 'catch' me and my interest. Otherwise, we'll just drift apart, and poor Caena will just have to move on with her life.
Dad, I love ya very much, and I always will. I'm sorry I hurt ya, and I'm also sorry that it comes easily and naturally to me that I can so easily hurt people. I've always had a silver tongue: that's why I've chosen to remain silent for all these years. You meant well, and I didn't appreciate it. I'm sorry for being a bad son.
---
This weekend I am taking my siblings to West Edmonton Mall and area, so they can do some shopping for their cos-play outfits. I am not taking any other people with us.
If anybody drops by the house for a visit, realize there is no room or welcome for this one trip Not trying to be mean, it's just how it is. Family time.
---
Tomorrow is a Sherritt BBQ, a big thank you for not dying on our last shutdown. Free food, an hour long lunch, and although it's a Thursday, it's actually our 'Friday', since the Sherritt yahoos get Friday off.
---
I cut my hair today, on my own. Apparently I did a crappy job, so Pig-Pen fixed the few spots I missed for me. Expect a picture soon, once Stephanie gets her vacation/school trip photos onto her dads computers.
I'll also be doing a nudey pic for Rinni and a feral RPer.
---
Night peoplez.
He met a very nice lady, who he thought would be super-awesome for me to chat with, since I DO like talking to some people online.
I'm giving her a chance to 'catch' me and my interest. Otherwise, we'll just drift apart, and poor Caena will just have to move on with her life.
Dad, I love ya very much, and I always will. I'm sorry I hurt ya, and I'm also sorry that it comes easily and naturally to me that I can so easily hurt people. I've always had a silver tongue: that's why I've chosen to remain silent for all these years. You meant well, and I didn't appreciate it. I'm sorry for being a bad son.
---
This weekend I am taking my siblings to West Edmonton Mall and area, so they can do some shopping for their cos-play outfits. I am not taking any other people with us.
If anybody drops by the house for a visit, realize there is no room or welcome for this one trip Not trying to be mean, it's just how it is. Family time.
---
Tomorrow is a Sherritt BBQ, a big thank you for not dying on our last shutdown. Free food, an hour long lunch, and although it's a Thursday, it's actually our 'Friday', since the Sherritt yahoos get Friday off.
---
I cut my hair today, on my own. Apparently I did a crappy job, so Pig-Pen fixed the few spots I missed for me. Expect a picture soon, once Stephanie gets her vacation/school trip photos onto her dads computers.
I'll also be doing a nudey pic for Rinni and a feral RPer.
---
Night peoplez.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Honesty
Today started off kind of bland, being a Monday and all. My head was full of a negative vibe, and it didn't go away until after my first coffee break this morning. But once it did, wow. Days much better now.
First of all, okay, I'm FINALLY going through my girl-phase. I'm only now beginning to notice other girls, all around me. Crazy times, for sure, but as pretty as other girls can be, I have my sights and thoughts dominated by just one woman. Still, I'm looking at other girls now, and WOW. Wow... ^_^
Had a safety meeting at work today regarding Noise. Noise. That was it. Noise. We learned about hearing ranges, decibles, danger zones, a bit of ear biology... We spent an hour at work, learning, about NOISE... ~_~
This up-coming Thursday, us Sherritt yahoos will all be having a BBQ at work. We'll get to enjoy a long 1 hour lunch break, for free, courtesy of Sherritt as a big thank you for not blowing up the plant during our last and most recent shut-down. I'm terribly happy that it's on a Thursday, because the last Sherritt BBQ we had, Jamie had to miss it, due to her having a day off for school. She'll be able to go to this one.
Yesterday, a Sunday, I went for my first hike this year down by Ross Creek. I just decided to randomly go for a hike. I found on my travels an old bone, but no surrounding body or anything. I kept the bone. There were a bunch of dead trees knocked down, leaning across the creek in places, so I decided to climb over them. Lost my shoe on one, so I climbed shoeless down onto the bank, found a long stick, and saved my shoe with primitive fishing techniques. Yay!
I sent an e-mail to my dad, basically going WTF to him. There's this online user, named Caena, that just randomly added me a few months ago. I always thought it was a guy, who met me on the forums. He kept talking about my dad, telling me that my pops showed off my picture to this guy. The way Caena was talking, with broken english, and his/her incessant, almost needy messages, I really believed I was dealing with a stalker. Some old, east Indian male stalker.
My dad sent me a phone call, explaining that Caena is actually some woman about my age. He's trying to set me up... ~_~
Now, no offense to my pops, but I fail to see how a guy who's stuck on the past, has had two marraiges, and hardly knows his own son except by through his blogs and a few close moments in the past can understand what it is that I'm looking for.
If Caena is a werewolf queen of some dying tribe that somehow needs my rare blood from the dying Zorn bloodline to propogate a new batch of kits, then I can understand the need to hook up with her and mate. However, I am already in love, very much so, and although I'm SURE that Caena is a pleasant enough young woman, I just somehow don't feel that it was meant to be. I have told Caena that I will agree to get to know her better, and will even possibly try to make friends with her, and see if anything develops out of this. Who knows? Maybe my dad isn't so dumb and actually found me a good one. But I will certainly not rush this, and even if she is a drop-dead gorgeous bombshell that needs my genes, I want sooo much more in a woman that just that.
Still going on about Sunday. I gave mum a good massage, and my trouble sister Samantha, who is staying back at home with us, I gave her a foot rub. Sam and I get along great. I can talk to her like an older sister, and we have a lot of 'girl talks' together. I actually listen to her boyfriend issues, and personal problems, and we have fun, laugh and giggle together. It's even good to note that Jamie is getting along with Sam, for the most part, and that so far things at home are rather stable.
Stephanie came back from her Jasper trip with her school, bringing back, thank god, my camcorder, intact. She made lots of videos and pictures, but the battery died on her. I'll be sure to bring my battery charger with me when I go on my B.C. trip this summer. That is, if I haven't creeped out my Aunt Laura and family by some of my more shocking revelations in my blog.
Saturday. A most important day.
I was feeling heartstrung. All morning long. I wanted to stay at home, to be with her. But more importantly, I wanted to talk to someone about my feelings. Important people.
I went with Laurie from 10am till about 4:30pm, when her shift ended, as her 'co-pilot' while she went cabbing all day long.
Mum and I had some VERY interesting talks...
I told mum, from my own mouth, that I am not a virgin, and who my first was. She also knows that I was very young when she deflowered me. My first, Virginia, a childhood best-friend.
I talked to mum about some of my old, secret agendas, plans, and stuff.
Most importantly, I told my mum, that I am in love with Jamie.
I talked to her, explaining that, just my luck, of all the girls in my life that I had met, who I could have, right now, that the ONE girl I want... The ONLY girl I want, lives in my own house. I told her how grateful I am that I was able to have met her in my life, and how much she's inspired me, inspired me into wanting to become a man and to even care about myself again. Mum listened as I told her everything I love about her, everything about her that drives me crazy, and how amazing a woman I know she is.
You know what the most surprising thing of all is?...
Laurie took it all with surprising ease, and in fact, seems to approve of it. I have told a few people about my feelings for Jamie. Samantha, Stephanie, Tony, Chris, now Laurie, my aunt Laura, Rinni, and my old and very close friend at work, Doug. Every single one of these people have been supportive, and has in fact encouraged me to tell Jamie how I feel. They all seem to accept and approve of my attraction, as strange as it is. 'You're good for her.' 'You'll make her happy.' 'You will help her reach her dreams.' 'You'll never hurt her, and you two would compliment each other well.'
I have my own mother talking to me about my feelings for Jamie, and she even believes me when I say that my attraction for her goes way beyond mere physical. She tells me that if Jamie and I were to hook up in the future, to know that I have my mums support, even if Kim disapproves.
Laurie told me something. Her and Kim have often talked about Jamie moving out, and about how awesome it would be if the two of us got a place together. What the hell, right? O_o
Whatever. I can't even express how much gratitude I have for not being horribly cast away by my mum for revealing this to her. Rinni kept telling me how common it is for step-siblings to develop feelings for one another, and, because of marraiges, been frustrated and unable to explore them.
I have been told I have a liberal mind, for being open minded and willing to change things for the better. I hope one day, things that deny honesty and happiness in our world will disappear. If I can slowly make change through my writings online, then so be it. I have already touched many lives, through my creativity and honesty.
One day, soon, I will take a great chance in my life. I will talk to her, and tell Jamie, how much and how deeply I love her. Whether or not she accepts it, whether or not she has feelings in return, I must tell her.
I have many doubts, as the way she flirts with both Shawns, and even Tony, my brother, throws me off. But she flirts in a different way with me, and not all the time. Instead, I get to enjoy the serious side of her, the womanly side, and also her playfully and creative side. I wish I could enjoy it much more, as I love being open and creative around her as well.
Well, we shall see, soon enough.
Jamie liked the deep red shirt I wore on Saturday, said the colour suited me. The way she looked at me, and how she said that...
Night folks.
P.S.: Only hook me up with the supernatural ones!!!!2eleventyseven!
First of all, okay, I'm FINALLY going through my girl-phase. I'm only now beginning to notice other girls, all around me. Crazy times, for sure, but as pretty as other girls can be, I have my sights and thoughts dominated by just one woman. Still, I'm looking at other girls now, and WOW. Wow... ^_^
Had a safety meeting at work today regarding Noise. Noise. That was it. Noise. We learned about hearing ranges, decibles, danger zones, a bit of ear biology... We spent an hour at work, learning, about NOISE... ~_~
This up-coming Thursday, us Sherritt yahoos will all be having a BBQ at work. We'll get to enjoy a long 1 hour lunch break, for free, courtesy of Sherritt as a big thank you for not blowing up the plant during our last and most recent shut-down. I'm terribly happy that it's on a Thursday, because the last Sherritt BBQ we had, Jamie had to miss it, due to her having a day off for school. She'll be able to go to this one.
Yesterday, a Sunday, I went for my first hike this year down by Ross Creek. I just decided to randomly go for a hike. I found on my travels an old bone, but no surrounding body or anything. I kept the bone. There were a bunch of dead trees knocked down, leaning across the creek in places, so I decided to climb over them. Lost my shoe on one, so I climbed shoeless down onto the bank, found a long stick, and saved my shoe with primitive fishing techniques. Yay!
I sent an e-mail to my dad, basically going WTF to him. There's this online user, named Caena, that just randomly added me a few months ago. I always thought it was a guy, who met me on the forums. He kept talking about my dad, telling me that my pops showed off my picture to this guy. The way Caena was talking, with broken english, and his/her incessant, almost needy messages, I really believed I was dealing with a stalker. Some old, east Indian male stalker.
My dad sent me a phone call, explaining that Caena is actually some woman about my age. He's trying to set me up... ~_~
Now, no offense to my pops, but I fail to see how a guy who's stuck on the past, has had two marraiges, and hardly knows his own son except by through his blogs and a few close moments in the past can understand what it is that I'm looking for.
If Caena is a werewolf queen of some dying tribe that somehow needs my rare blood from the dying Zorn bloodline to propogate a new batch of kits, then I can understand the need to hook up with her and mate. However, I am already in love, very much so, and although I'm SURE that Caena is a pleasant enough young woman, I just somehow don't feel that it was meant to be. I have told Caena that I will agree to get to know her better, and will even possibly try to make friends with her, and see if anything develops out of this. Who knows? Maybe my dad isn't so dumb and actually found me a good one. But I will certainly not rush this, and even if she is a drop-dead gorgeous bombshell that needs my genes, I want sooo much more in a woman that just that.
Still going on about Sunday. I gave mum a good massage, and my trouble sister Samantha, who is staying back at home with us, I gave her a foot rub. Sam and I get along great. I can talk to her like an older sister, and we have a lot of 'girl talks' together. I actually listen to her boyfriend issues, and personal problems, and we have fun, laugh and giggle together. It's even good to note that Jamie is getting along with Sam, for the most part, and that so far things at home are rather stable.
Stephanie came back from her Jasper trip with her school, bringing back, thank god, my camcorder, intact. She made lots of videos and pictures, but the battery died on her. I'll be sure to bring my battery charger with me when I go on my B.C. trip this summer. That is, if I haven't creeped out my Aunt Laura and family by some of my more shocking revelations in my blog.
Saturday. A most important day.
I was feeling heartstrung. All morning long. I wanted to stay at home, to be with her. But more importantly, I wanted to talk to someone about my feelings. Important people.
I went with Laurie from 10am till about 4:30pm, when her shift ended, as her 'co-pilot' while she went cabbing all day long.
Mum and I had some VERY interesting talks...
I told mum, from my own mouth, that I am not a virgin, and who my first was. She also knows that I was very young when she deflowered me. My first, Virginia, a childhood best-friend.
I talked to mum about some of my old, secret agendas, plans, and stuff.
Most importantly, I told my mum, that I am in love with Jamie.
I talked to her, explaining that, just my luck, of all the girls in my life that I had met, who I could have, right now, that the ONE girl I want... The ONLY girl I want, lives in my own house. I told her how grateful I am that I was able to have met her in my life, and how much she's inspired me, inspired me into wanting to become a man and to even care about myself again. Mum listened as I told her everything I love about her, everything about her that drives me crazy, and how amazing a woman I know she is.
You know what the most surprising thing of all is?...
Laurie took it all with surprising ease, and in fact, seems to approve of it. I have told a few people about my feelings for Jamie. Samantha, Stephanie, Tony, Chris, now Laurie, my aunt Laura, Rinni, and my old and very close friend at work, Doug. Every single one of these people have been supportive, and has in fact encouraged me to tell Jamie how I feel. They all seem to accept and approve of my attraction, as strange as it is. 'You're good for her.' 'You'll make her happy.' 'You will help her reach her dreams.' 'You'll never hurt her, and you two would compliment each other well.'
I have my own mother talking to me about my feelings for Jamie, and she even believes me when I say that my attraction for her goes way beyond mere physical. She tells me that if Jamie and I were to hook up in the future, to know that I have my mums support, even if Kim disapproves.
Laurie told me something. Her and Kim have often talked about Jamie moving out, and about how awesome it would be if the two of us got a place together. What the hell, right? O_o
Whatever. I can't even express how much gratitude I have for not being horribly cast away by my mum for revealing this to her. Rinni kept telling me how common it is for step-siblings to develop feelings for one another, and, because of marraiges, been frustrated and unable to explore them.
I have been told I have a liberal mind, for being open minded and willing to change things for the better. I hope one day, things that deny honesty and happiness in our world will disappear. If I can slowly make change through my writings online, then so be it. I have already touched many lives, through my creativity and honesty.
One day, soon, I will take a great chance in my life. I will talk to her, and tell Jamie, how much and how deeply I love her. Whether or not she accepts it, whether or not she has feelings in return, I must tell her.
I have many doubts, as the way she flirts with both Shawns, and even Tony, my brother, throws me off. But she flirts in a different way with me, and not all the time. Instead, I get to enjoy the serious side of her, the womanly side, and also her playfully and creative side. I wish I could enjoy it much more, as I love being open and creative around her as well.
Well, we shall see, soon enough.
Jamie liked the deep red shirt I wore on Saturday, said the colour suited me. The way she looked at me, and how she said that...
Night folks.
P.S.: Only hook me up with the supernatural ones!!!!2eleventyseven!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Post #111.
Well, it's now the wet season in mid-northern Alberta. It's raining really well, and will continue to rain hard and non-stop for the rest of the week.
I love rain and wind, really, I do. The smells, the artistic gloom and colour of it all... I have a lot of good memories associated with the rain, including epic tree-planting weekends, camping, trips, long summer nights of playing Doctor... Yeah. Stuff like that. ^_^
I'm sitting here, my dads' gift from last Christmas open on my desk. I never used it, because I thought it was just a printer. But it turns out that it also has a scanner built into it as well, which is cool.
Unfortunately, I'm missing a cord, so I'll have to wait until this weekend, and dig through my stored stuff in my clean room (yup, still clean!) to find it.
I dunno. I have a huge lack of motivation in my artistic fields, but if I can do some pencil crayon sketches, then I can at least upload them to my computer and stick them all on my Photobucket site.
I'm so unmotivated right now that I can't even load Harding's tattoo videos on my computer right now. I'll eventually stick them on my YouTube link, but until then, I dunno. Just have to wait 'til the weekend.
Just took Stephanie to the laundry-mat. She has a bunch of stuff to prep for her camping trip this weekend, and our dryer at home crapped out on us.
I didn't mind going with her, even if it is raining. We stuck it in the wash, then drove to Dairy Queen for some ice cream. After, we went back, stuck it in the dryer, then went to 7-11 for hot chocolate, a paper, and some candy for her. We sat around and talked for a bit, you know, girl stuff, then made our way home. Pretty basic stuff.
Had a mini argument with Steph.
Well, understand, that tonight Jamie is cooking dinner for us all. Bless that woman, she made tacos for me, err, us I mean...
Stephanie wanted in the kitchen, and Jamie, who hates cooking by the way (according to Steph), shooed her out and told her to stay out until she was done. Steph is 16, and gets hot-headed at times, especially in retaliation.
Stephanie knows how I feel for Jamie, and she understands that I really do love her the way I do. So I asked her to get along with Jamie, and I told Steph that I still loved HER as well, just... Just not on the same level.
But, it's all good now, it's cleared up, and things so far are fine.
Mum went out to her Eastern Star sorority thing, and Kim went out to the bar, so just us kids are at home tonight.
I just got a picture right now from a girl in the States that I rp with. Damn...
She just came online, and offered me a pic, a NUDE pic. Did I refuse?...
It is now my desktop background. That's all I'll say. And no, I don't care if she's only 16. From the States. Not one bit.
I roleplay with her a lot. She's a furry, and she enjoys anthropomorphic porn or hentai. Stories about cat-girls or vixens who are half fox/half women interest her.
Me, I cater to her desires, and throw in a few story elements that I like into the mix. It's a great creative mix-up.
My brother Tony offered me some vodka, which is rare, so I accepted. If I start to slur a little, understand, it's HIS fault. ^_^
Jamie is playing Resident Evil 4 right now, and I'm sitting down here, all alone, blogging. Lol. I could be up there...
Shawn Hale just popped in. It's 9:35 pm, and I'm halfway through a sexual rp with that girl who sent me a nude picture of herself. Mmm, fun stuff.
Oh, before I forget. Stephanie came down the other night, and asked me to buy her a new sex toy, since I just recently bought some for myself.
So, she went through some sites I order from, and we giggled and laughed about some of the oddest looking perversions and toys out there. Anal toys that look like squids, dildoes with funny names like 'The Destroyer', stuff like that.
She finally settled on a few styles and types she might like, so, after a little pursuasion, convinced me to buy her one. It'll be here next week. The 'Jelly-iffic Vibrator with Clitoral Stimulator', or something like that. In purple. Cute.
I told her she should get something realistic, like the Cyber-Cock, but she said she wanted something funky and cool, so, go figure, it's purple. O_o
So, hopefully she likes it.
Gotta run guys. Shits popping up. Later!
I love rain and wind, really, I do. The smells, the artistic gloom and colour of it all... I have a lot of good memories associated with the rain, including epic tree-planting weekends, camping, trips, long summer nights of playing Doctor... Yeah. Stuff like that. ^_^
I'm sitting here, my dads' gift from last Christmas open on my desk. I never used it, because I thought it was just a printer. But it turns out that it also has a scanner built into it as well, which is cool.
Unfortunately, I'm missing a cord, so I'll have to wait until this weekend, and dig through my stored stuff in my clean room (yup, still clean!) to find it.
I dunno. I have a huge lack of motivation in my artistic fields, but if I can do some pencil crayon sketches, then I can at least upload them to my computer and stick them all on my Photobucket site.
I'm so unmotivated right now that I can't even load Harding's tattoo videos on my computer right now. I'll eventually stick them on my YouTube link, but until then, I dunno. Just have to wait 'til the weekend.
Just took Stephanie to the laundry-mat. She has a bunch of stuff to prep for her camping trip this weekend, and our dryer at home crapped out on us.
I didn't mind going with her, even if it is raining. We stuck it in the wash, then drove to Dairy Queen for some ice cream. After, we went back, stuck it in the dryer, then went to 7-11 for hot chocolate, a paper, and some candy for her. We sat around and talked for a bit, you know, girl stuff, then made our way home. Pretty basic stuff.
Had a mini argument with Steph.
Well, understand, that tonight Jamie is cooking dinner for us all. Bless that woman, she made tacos for me, err, us I mean...
Stephanie wanted in the kitchen, and Jamie, who hates cooking by the way (according to Steph), shooed her out and told her to stay out until she was done. Steph is 16, and gets hot-headed at times, especially in retaliation.
Stephanie knows how I feel for Jamie, and she understands that I really do love her the way I do. So I asked her to get along with Jamie, and I told Steph that I still loved HER as well, just... Just not on the same level.
But, it's all good now, it's cleared up, and things so far are fine.
Mum went out to her Eastern Star sorority thing, and Kim went out to the bar, so just us kids are at home tonight.
I just got a picture right now from a girl in the States that I rp with. Damn...
She just came online, and offered me a pic, a NUDE pic. Did I refuse?...
It is now my desktop background. That's all I'll say. And no, I don't care if she's only 16. From the States. Not one bit.
I roleplay with her a lot. She's a furry, and she enjoys anthropomorphic porn or hentai. Stories about cat-girls or vixens who are half fox/half women interest her.
Me, I cater to her desires, and throw in a few story elements that I like into the mix. It's a great creative mix-up.
My brother Tony offered me some vodka, which is rare, so I accepted. If I start to slur a little, understand, it's HIS fault. ^_^
Jamie is playing Resident Evil 4 right now, and I'm sitting down here, all alone, blogging. Lol. I could be up there...
Shawn Hale just popped in. It's 9:35 pm, and I'm halfway through a sexual rp with that girl who sent me a nude picture of herself. Mmm, fun stuff.
Oh, before I forget. Stephanie came down the other night, and asked me to buy her a new sex toy, since I just recently bought some for myself.
So, she went through some sites I order from, and we giggled and laughed about some of the oddest looking perversions and toys out there. Anal toys that look like squids, dildoes with funny names like 'The Destroyer', stuff like that.
She finally settled on a few styles and types she might like, so, after a little pursuasion, convinced me to buy her one. It'll be here next week. The 'Jelly-iffic Vibrator with Clitoral Stimulator', or something like that. In purple. Cute.
I told her she should get something realistic, like the Cyber-Cock, but she said she wanted something funky and cool, so, go figure, it's purple. O_o
So, hopefully she likes it.
Gotta run guys. Shits popping up. Later!
Monday, May 19, 2008
I Have A Bit Of Colour!
Been sun-tanning for the past two days.
Well, more like sun-burning. We basement dwellers don't tan well... O_o
Yesterday I spent the night at Jamie's dads' place. I was invited over for a beer or three (which he didn't have...). Since Jamie wanted to visit him, she came along too, but she didn't stay the night.
John bought us all some Chinese food, then afterwards we went to that seasonal ice cream parlour, Millers Ice Cream. I then dropped Jamie off back at home, then went to Johns with Chris and Richard, where we played Nintendo Wii and XBox 360 all night long. Oh, I also did a ton of push-ups, stretches, and other stuff to wear myself out. It was super hot, and I couldn't sleep... >_>
---
Read Hardings' last blog entry apparently. He's gonna delete his blog. Ah well, he doesn't realize how much of his history will be lost if he does that. But he believes that the blog isn't working as a stress relief/form of communication with those that might actually care about his life. Let him do what he wants I guess, I have no control over him.
Don't worry Shawn, those facts and secrets are safe with me.
I want you to think though, what it would be like if I were to delete my own blog. I've done it in the past, and even now regret all the lost notes on my own past. But, you're a big boy, so do what you think is best for yourself.
P.S., I wonder what it is that you continuously hint about, that certain unmentional piece of information that you haven't explained yet. Looks like you have secrets of your own! ^_^
Maybe you'll tell me one day. Maybe not.
---
Going back to work tomorrow, so I'm going to bed. Night folks.
Well, more like sun-burning. We basement dwellers don't tan well... O_o
Yesterday I spent the night at Jamie's dads' place. I was invited over for a beer or three (which he didn't have...). Since Jamie wanted to visit him, she came along too, but she didn't stay the night.
John bought us all some Chinese food, then afterwards we went to that seasonal ice cream parlour, Millers Ice Cream. I then dropped Jamie off back at home, then went to Johns with Chris and Richard, where we played Nintendo Wii and XBox 360 all night long. Oh, I also did a ton of push-ups, stretches, and other stuff to wear myself out. It was super hot, and I couldn't sleep... >_>
---
Read Hardings' last blog entry apparently. He's gonna delete his blog. Ah well, he doesn't realize how much of his history will be lost if he does that. But he believes that the blog isn't working as a stress relief/form of communication with those that might actually care about his life. Let him do what he wants I guess, I have no control over him.
Don't worry Shawn, those facts and secrets are safe with me.
I want you to think though, what it would be like if I were to delete my own blog. I've done it in the past, and even now regret all the lost notes on my own past. But, you're a big boy, so do what you think is best for yourself.
P.S., I wonder what it is that you continuously hint about, that certain unmentional piece of information that you haven't explained yet. Looks like you have secrets of your own! ^_^
Maybe you'll tell me one day. Maybe not.
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Going back to work tomorrow, so I'm going to bed. Night folks.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Birthday Favors Are Complete!
Well, yesterday we went into Edmonton to get Shawn Hardings tattoo done. This time, our trip ends in success.
Stephanie, Shawn, me and Jamie, we all went together. I made SURE to fill up my gas tank the day before, and a Jerry-Can, since gas is supposed to be going up to a whopping $1.50 per litre in Alberta for the long weekend. I saved a bit by getting it when it was cheap [Cries...] at ONLY $1.27 a litre.
This time I kinda knew the route to get to the tattoo parlour, so we went as fast as we could. Despite my wishes at going a little earlier than normal, they chose to go at JUST THE RIGHT TIME, where we would end up with mere minutes to make the final strecth in city to make it there on time.
We had maybe two minutes to get there, and as we entered, found out the artist was on his lunch break anyway, and would have a slight delay before working on Shawn.
Well, nobody wanted to sit in my scorching truck on that plus 30 degree day, nor could we stay in the tiny lobby at the tattoo joint, so we decided to leave Shawn there to get his work done. Both girls wanted to go shopping at Kingsway Mall.
We said goodbye to him, not having to pay for the tattoo until the work was finished. Jamie and him made sure they could communicate by cell-phone, and made sure their numbers added up.
So, the girls and I decided to do a little shopping then. The mall was only a couple of blocks away, so it wasn't too hard to get to.
For the first hour, oh my god... The girls looked at shoes, dresses, tops... Here I am, torn. Some of the outfits looked HOT. But I don't like to go shopping, especially with Stephanie. She'll get this mental image of what she wants and likes, but she won't share the details. You just trail along as she hmmms' and hahs', and try to offer suggestions. However, all of my suggestions are 'hideous' or 'ugly'. If I say nothing at all, I get yelled at for not helping her pick out outfits. What the hell?! [Throws his arms up in exasperation.]
Jamie is looking for outfit pieces for a wedding that she has to go to this summer, so for her, at least I can get a picture in my head.
We entered three swim-suit stores... [Drool...]
There are things in it that make my head spin, and my girls were looking at them! I suggested that if they wanted to look really hot, they should get that swimsuit that has a cute mini-skirt thing on the bikini bottom. They gave it a curious side-glance with a smile, then we moved on.
We entered all types of shoppes, but a few stand out. The comic book/hobby/anime store was one of them. Inside the girls immediately went to the costume side, so they could find cos-play accessories for an animethon that they both are going to this summer. Steph didn't find much for herself, as she and Jamie have to actually modify clothing and MAKE her costume, but Jamie found something for hers instead. She got a handgun holster, that can fit on either your waist or leg. Very cool, she's going to borrow my realistic soft-air handgun when she goes.
We entered a pet store, and there it was, a puppy that I fell in love with. $1200 for a puppy! O_o
Found out Jamie and Steph want to touch a snake one day. Heh, I forgot to tell them that as a kid I went to the zoos all the time, and touched all manner or creatures. (Appropriately, of course...)
Passed by the love boutique... >_>
After a bunch of shopping, Jamie got her call from Shawn, so we made our way back through hellish big-city traffic, and arrived. Turns out that tattoos can only be paid for in cash. I didn't have any cash on me, neither did Jamie.
The closest ATM machine was across an intersection (or so we thought), so Jamie left us. I remembered inside my head that many ATM's only spit out $200 tops, so I tried to find one. The guys inside said there was an ATM just next door in the chinese food place, so I went in there, and pulled out the $250 to cover Shawn's tattoo, just in case. I mean, if Jamie could only pull out $200 from hers, I could make up the difference.
Jamie was taking too long, and the owner guy was getting mad that we didn't have the money, so I just paid it all up front, then Shawn and I skedaddled out of that store.
We were getting into the truck, and Jamie was crossing the street, a furious look on her face. She angrily said, 'What the hell!?', in regards to why we were outside, ready to go. She was upset, since she wanted to pay. I told her I just had to pay inside, so we could go, and that Jamie could pay me back out here. A little fury remained, and didn't go away, until she forked over what I had paid. She was 10 bucks short though, but I didn't say anything. $240 is $20s' is close enough.
After a bit of driving, she cooled off a lot. I think the heat of the day, the stress of getting things done on time, the fact that this should have been done two weeks ago, was all adding up. It's over now babe, it's cool. Let's head on home...
Nope. Jamie wanted a Burger King, and there's, what, maybe two in all of Edmonton. Trouble is, nobody knows where one is. I drove around, letting instincts guide me. When I used to work with her dad, I seemed to recall an area of town with a great selection of fast food places. So, we went for a drive.
I'm all happy because I bought the movie 'The Lost Boys' on DVD, and a few CDs, from an HMV store in the mall. Jamie bought some tunes as well I think.
We eventually get there, and I said that I hate drive-thru (and it's true), so we went inside, to enjoy air conditioning.
I had never been to a Burger King before, so it was new to me. I had my virgin Whopper for the very first time. Hey, I liked it. O_o
All three of those yahoos got those little card-board crowns to wear. I chose not to. Silly little things... >_>
Shawn kept showing off his tattoo, and it looks good by the way, but I was getting a little annoyed from the whole trip experience. I mean, no offence to Shawn or anything, but everyone's been catering him to make his birthday special. And since his tattoo thing has been delayed, the special treatment has been stretched out.
See, last trip we all made, Shawn Hale was our driver. He was courteous enough to drive Jamie, me, himself, and Harding out for dinners and stuff. We all like Jamie, as more than a friend, but since it was Shawns birthday, we 'catered' to him, and said nothing when he dominated Jamie's attention and time. Harding alos doesn't always seem to realize how far we're bending over for him. We were driving, playing some good tunes, to distract the fact that Jamie was being monoploized by him in the back seat. Shawn in the back was annoyed by the tunage, and TOLD the driver, big Shawn, to turn his own stereo down. Big Shawn needed directions on where to go next, and asked the two in the back. Shawn in the back wasn't stopping his non-stop conversations, so he felt he was rudely interupted. Hey, we were in an intersection, and needed to know where to go.
Me, I've had to top up my gas tank for these trips twice now, for the tatoo and all. It ain't cheap. Plus the time I spend, and the annoyance and danger of city driving. How much it hurts me to see Jamie become monopolized by another man... The fact that the trip had nothing good in it for me, and that the entire weekend(s) were catered around him instead. It's hard man, really hard, to put up with the fact that the woman I'm in love with is doing extra special favors for my rival/friend. Plus, she's planning on going to his house for the night, staying up late and playing games, giggling, making sexual innuendo...
There's a limit on how much I can take. When I start viewing my friend with envy/contempt/hurt, then it's time for me to retreat and leave the room.
---
Last night, after Jamie and Shawn left, I took Stephanie with me to go to a seasonal outside icecream place, called 'Millers Icecream'. She lazily rode her bike beside me, and off we went. I bought a scoop of bubblegum, topped with a scoop of tiger icecream, all on a waffle cone. She got a chocolate kahlua rush thing, on a waffle cone. 11 bucks! O_o Ah well, totally worth it.
We lazily walked/rode back home, taking the long way back, down some back sidewalks and stuff. I love lazy evenings, with the heavy summer air turning into a cool breeze now and then, the smell of the trees and grass...
We made it home, where I met one of my mums new friends. Another Michelle, a very young mom with two kids. She is CUTE! ^_^ But not my type.
I gave my mum a nice, long foot rub, before she went to bed. The heat in our house, I don't know if she'll be able to sleep at nights any more. It's even warm in the basement.
After that, I was alone with Stephanie, so I gave her a bunch of rub-downs too. Started on her feet and legs, working my way up. I was on her inner thighs when I was interupted. Shawn and Jamie arrived. I guess they changed their plans to play games at Shawns' dads' house to play at our house instead. So whatever. Steph and I were watching a movie, so they had to wait until we finished.
I put Steph on the floor, and did her back and shoulders next. Did the back of her legs, swatted her bum, and told her I was done when the movie was over.
I went downstairs, and at 2am, Rinni, my Australian friend, had a nice long talk with me.
So, it is now Sunday morning. I have morning wood that will NOT go away, and it's pissing me off. I can feel the heat outside, it's humid today, not dry. Ugh, it's like those long, lazy summer days of my younger days, the kind of hot, lazy days that usually end up in trouble, like sneaking around and having secret sex with the neighbour girls.
I'll update in a bit. Gonna try to veg out by playing War-Crack. Later folks.
Stephanie, Shawn, me and Jamie, we all went together. I made SURE to fill up my gas tank the day before, and a Jerry-Can, since gas is supposed to be going up to a whopping $1.50 per litre in Alberta for the long weekend. I saved a bit by getting it when it was cheap [Cries...] at ONLY $1.27 a litre.
This time I kinda knew the route to get to the tattoo parlour, so we went as fast as we could. Despite my wishes at going a little earlier than normal, they chose to go at JUST THE RIGHT TIME, where we would end up with mere minutes to make the final strecth in city to make it there on time.
We had maybe two minutes to get there, and as we entered, found out the artist was on his lunch break anyway, and would have a slight delay before working on Shawn.
Well, nobody wanted to sit in my scorching truck on that plus 30 degree day, nor could we stay in the tiny lobby at the tattoo joint, so we decided to leave Shawn there to get his work done. Both girls wanted to go shopping at Kingsway Mall.
We said goodbye to him, not having to pay for the tattoo until the work was finished. Jamie and him made sure they could communicate by cell-phone, and made sure their numbers added up.
So, the girls and I decided to do a little shopping then. The mall was only a couple of blocks away, so it wasn't too hard to get to.
For the first hour, oh my god... The girls looked at shoes, dresses, tops... Here I am, torn. Some of the outfits looked HOT. But I don't like to go shopping, especially with Stephanie. She'll get this mental image of what she wants and likes, but she won't share the details. You just trail along as she hmmms' and hahs', and try to offer suggestions. However, all of my suggestions are 'hideous' or 'ugly'. If I say nothing at all, I get yelled at for not helping her pick out outfits. What the hell?! [Throws his arms up in exasperation.]
Jamie is looking for outfit pieces for a wedding that she has to go to this summer, so for her, at least I can get a picture in my head.
We entered three swim-suit stores... [Drool...]
There are things in it that make my head spin, and my girls were looking at them! I suggested that if they wanted to look really hot, they should get that swimsuit that has a cute mini-skirt thing on the bikini bottom. They gave it a curious side-glance with a smile, then we moved on.
We entered all types of shoppes, but a few stand out. The comic book/hobby/anime store was one of them. Inside the girls immediately went to the costume side, so they could find cos-play accessories for an animethon that they both are going to this summer. Steph didn't find much for herself, as she and Jamie have to actually modify clothing and MAKE her costume, but Jamie found something for hers instead. She got a handgun holster, that can fit on either your waist or leg. Very cool, she's going to borrow my realistic soft-air handgun when she goes.
We entered a pet store, and there it was, a puppy that I fell in love with. $1200 for a puppy! O_o
Found out Jamie and Steph want to touch a snake one day. Heh, I forgot to tell them that as a kid I went to the zoos all the time, and touched all manner or creatures. (Appropriately, of course...)
Passed by the love boutique... >_>
After a bunch of shopping, Jamie got her call from Shawn, so we made our way back through hellish big-city traffic, and arrived. Turns out that tattoos can only be paid for in cash. I didn't have any cash on me, neither did Jamie.
The closest ATM machine was across an intersection (or so we thought), so Jamie left us. I remembered inside my head that many ATM's only spit out $200 tops, so I tried to find one. The guys inside said there was an ATM just next door in the chinese food place, so I went in there, and pulled out the $250 to cover Shawn's tattoo, just in case. I mean, if Jamie could only pull out $200 from hers, I could make up the difference.
Jamie was taking too long, and the owner guy was getting mad that we didn't have the money, so I just paid it all up front, then Shawn and I skedaddled out of that store.
We were getting into the truck, and Jamie was crossing the street, a furious look on her face. She angrily said, 'What the hell!?', in regards to why we were outside, ready to go. She was upset, since she wanted to pay. I told her I just had to pay inside, so we could go, and that Jamie could pay me back out here. A little fury remained, and didn't go away, until she forked over what I had paid. She was 10 bucks short though, but I didn't say anything. $240 is $20s' is close enough.
After a bit of driving, she cooled off a lot. I think the heat of the day, the stress of getting things done on time, the fact that this should have been done two weeks ago, was all adding up. It's over now babe, it's cool. Let's head on home...
Nope. Jamie wanted a Burger King, and there's, what, maybe two in all of Edmonton. Trouble is, nobody knows where one is. I drove around, letting instincts guide me. When I used to work with her dad, I seemed to recall an area of town with a great selection of fast food places. So, we went for a drive.
I'm all happy because I bought the movie 'The Lost Boys' on DVD, and a few CDs, from an HMV store in the mall. Jamie bought some tunes as well I think.
We eventually get there, and I said that I hate drive-thru (and it's true), so we went inside, to enjoy air conditioning.
I had never been to a Burger King before, so it was new to me. I had my virgin Whopper for the very first time. Hey, I liked it. O_o
All three of those yahoos got those little card-board crowns to wear. I chose not to. Silly little things... >_>
Shawn kept showing off his tattoo, and it looks good by the way, but I was getting a little annoyed from the whole trip experience. I mean, no offence to Shawn or anything, but everyone's been catering him to make his birthday special. And since his tattoo thing has been delayed, the special treatment has been stretched out.
See, last trip we all made, Shawn Hale was our driver. He was courteous enough to drive Jamie, me, himself, and Harding out for dinners and stuff. We all like Jamie, as more than a friend, but since it was Shawns birthday, we 'catered' to him, and said nothing when he dominated Jamie's attention and time. Harding alos doesn't always seem to realize how far we're bending over for him. We were driving, playing some good tunes, to distract the fact that Jamie was being monoploized by him in the back seat. Shawn in the back was annoyed by the tunage, and TOLD the driver, big Shawn, to turn his own stereo down. Big Shawn needed directions on where to go next, and asked the two in the back. Shawn in the back wasn't stopping his non-stop conversations, so he felt he was rudely interupted. Hey, we were in an intersection, and needed to know where to go.
Me, I've had to top up my gas tank for these trips twice now, for the tatoo and all. It ain't cheap. Plus the time I spend, and the annoyance and danger of city driving. How much it hurts me to see Jamie become monopolized by another man... The fact that the trip had nothing good in it for me, and that the entire weekend(s) were catered around him instead. It's hard man, really hard, to put up with the fact that the woman I'm in love with is doing extra special favors for my rival/friend. Plus, she's planning on going to his house for the night, staying up late and playing games, giggling, making sexual innuendo...
There's a limit on how much I can take. When I start viewing my friend with envy/contempt/hurt, then it's time for me to retreat and leave the room.
---
Last night, after Jamie and Shawn left, I took Stephanie with me to go to a seasonal outside icecream place, called 'Millers Icecream'. She lazily rode her bike beside me, and off we went. I bought a scoop of bubblegum, topped with a scoop of tiger icecream, all on a waffle cone. She got a chocolate kahlua rush thing, on a waffle cone. 11 bucks! O_o Ah well, totally worth it.
We lazily walked/rode back home, taking the long way back, down some back sidewalks and stuff. I love lazy evenings, with the heavy summer air turning into a cool breeze now and then, the smell of the trees and grass...
We made it home, where I met one of my mums new friends. Another Michelle, a very young mom with two kids. She is CUTE! ^_^ But not my type.
I gave my mum a nice, long foot rub, before she went to bed. The heat in our house, I don't know if she'll be able to sleep at nights any more. It's even warm in the basement.
After that, I was alone with Stephanie, so I gave her a bunch of rub-downs too. Started on her feet and legs, working my way up. I was on her inner thighs when I was interupted. Shawn and Jamie arrived. I guess they changed their plans to play games at Shawns' dads' house to play at our house instead. So whatever. Steph and I were watching a movie, so they had to wait until we finished.
I put Steph on the floor, and did her back and shoulders next. Did the back of her legs, swatted her bum, and told her I was done when the movie was over.
I went downstairs, and at 2am, Rinni, my Australian friend, had a nice long talk with me.
So, it is now Sunday morning. I have morning wood that will NOT go away, and it's pissing me off. I can feel the heat outside, it's humid today, not dry. Ugh, it's like those long, lazy summer days of my younger days, the kind of hot, lazy days that usually end up in trouble, like sneaking around and having secret sex with the neighbour girls.
I'll update in a bit. Gonna try to veg out by playing War-Crack. Later folks.
Friday, May 16, 2008
New 'Toys'!!! >_<
Alright, you all should know by now that I am a very sexually eager guy.
I blame... [Duh duh duhhh...] my FATHER, for passing on this very sick and, ummm, PERSUASIVE Zorn gene. >_<
Last week I ordered two new things, and, by the estimated delivery time, shouldn't be here yet until next Tuesday.
Well... >_>
They came in today!!! ^_^
Well, I bought a replica vagina, with a very nice and expensive texturized skin, that actually feels like human skin. Has everything: a proper labia, clit, naturally-placed openings... Works too. O_o
The second thing I bought can be used by guys or girls, and could be in fact something I could use on someone else to enhance a sex life. Gots me a rubber dong! >_<
Not just any cheap-old rubber either. Again, I paid a little extra, and got something realistic and worthwhile.
Funny to note, that, while I may have a different curve and slightly different shape, the lengths are very close to one another, as is thickness. Glad I fit into the 'normal' range, or, slightly past that range, to be exact. (As posted millions of posts back.)
I had never tried KY Jelly until today. Usually it's just Astroglide, a marvelous product by the way, which is usually good enough. I tried a little product experimentation, and found that the two compliment each other, so, I think I'll be mixing from now on.
Any dislikes so far?...
Yeah. There's a heavy product smell that's supposed to go away after a few washings, like rubber that was cooked with baby powder or something odd in it too long.
The products don't prevent you from cumming... (Seems that they in fact quicken it, for some reason. >_<)
I miss those warm, sensual bodies arching back, long legs splayed to either side of me, the weight of those hips and pelvis rocking back and forth...
Phew, whoa. Getting a little warm in here... >_>
Here I was, driving out to WalMart, only to discover that it was closing. I'm heading to the 'products' aisle, where the announcement comes. 'All shoppers must take their final purchases to the front and get out of the store ASAP.'
So, I speed over, grab my KY Jelly and a new thing of Astroglide, a hair trimmer kit, batteries, and gum, and quickly run over to the self check-out aisle.
Yup, standing beside a whole lot of young women, right beside me, and I'm just all cool and collective, my lubes out in the open. n_n
Night peoples. Many mis-adventures await!
I blame... [Duh duh duhhh...] my FATHER, for passing on this very sick and, ummm, PERSUASIVE Zorn gene. >_<
Last week I ordered two new things, and, by the estimated delivery time, shouldn't be here yet until next Tuesday.
Well... >_>
They came in today!!! ^_^
Well, I bought a replica vagina, with a very nice and expensive texturized skin, that actually feels like human skin. Has everything: a proper labia, clit, naturally-placed openings... Works too. O_o
The second thing I bought can be used by guys or girls, and could be in fact something I could use on someone else to enhance a sex life. Gots me a rubber dong! >_<
Not just any cheap-old rubber either. Again, I paid a little extra, and got something realistic and worthwhile.
Funny to note, that, while I may have a different curve and slightly different shape, the lengths are very close to one another, as is thickness. Glad I fit into the 'normal' range, or, slightly past that range, to be exact. (As posted millions of posts back.)
I had never tried KY Jelly until today. Usually it's just Astroglide, a marvelous product by the way, which is usually good enough. I tried a little product experimentation, and found that the two compliment each other, so, I think I'll be mixing from now on.
Any dislikes so far?...
Yeah. There's a heavy product smell that's supposed to go away after a few washings, like rubber that was cooked with baby powder or something odd in it too long.
The products don't prevent you from cumming... (Seems that they in fact quicken it, for some reason. >_<)
I miss those warm, sensual bodies arching back, long legs splayed to either side of me, the weight of those hips and pelvis rocking back and forth...
Phew, whoa. Getting a little warm in here... >_>
Here I was, driving out to WalMart, only to discover that it was closing. I'm heading to the 'products' aisle, where the announcement comes. 'All shoppers must take their final purchases to the front and get out of the store ASAP.'
So, I speed over, grab my KY Jelly and a new thing of Astroglide, a hair trimmer kit, batteries, and gum, and quickly run over to the self check-out aisle.
Yup, standing beside a whole lot of young women, right beside me, and I'm just all cool and collective, my lubes out in the open. n_n
Night peoples. Many mis-adventures await!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
O-kay... >_>
Well, there was a guy at work a while ago, anmed John, who've I've posted about before. He's a great guy, a father figure at work, who had to leave for a while due to his mum dying on him.
I saw him for the first time the other day, when Tony (my brother) and I went to 7-11 for some pop. He spoke to me, and he sounds so sad and depressed... He can't come back to work for a bit: apparently he's still grieving.
I have plans this weekend to get Shawn's tattoo done, but now that HE may be grieving over his uncle, I don't know if he plans to maintain those plans.
John (Jamie's dad this time) sent me an e-mail. WooT! ^_^
He invited me out for a beer this weekend. I returned an e-mail to him, containing some much needed-to-be-said private info that I hope he takes well.
Today at work I got to drive a bob-cat again (skid-steer). Picking up grit in ditches. There's a LOT of grit in ditches at work...
While driving, I passed Larry St Amand, the boss that made it so I couldn't drive for a while, due to me stunting. he waved and I waved, and he drove off, so hopefully I'm not in shit for driving equipment now... >_>
I have a feeling though that everything is all good though, since I've been busting my balls and being a good boy at work.
Stephanie is mad today, and I got into a tiff with her. Apparently, I'm not allowed to come upstairs and play on my Playstation when there's nothing on T.V.. Had a fight with her, but I don't care. She's just a bratty sister, nothing more, and I have every right to stretch out in my own home and have some fun for once. Since she's so unhappy today, she wants to be left alone to channel-surf at her leisure.
Tough titty said the kitty when the milk went shitty.
Dunno what else to say. Night guys.
I saw him for the first time the other day, when Tony (my brother) and I went to 7-11 for some pop. He spoke to me, and he sounds so sad and depressed... He can't come back to work for a bit: apparently he's still grieving.
I have plans this weekend to get Shawn's tattoo done, but now that HE may be grieving over his uncle, I don't know if he plans to maintain those plans.
John (Jamie's dad this time) sent me an e-mail. WooT! ^_^
He invited me out for a beer this weekend. I returned an e-mail to him, containing some much needed-to-be-said private info that I hope he takes well.
Today at work I got to drive a bob-cat again (skid-steer). Picking up grit in ditches. There's a LOT of grit in ditches at work...
While driving, I passed Larry St Amand, the boss that made it so I couldn't drive for a while, due to me stunting. he waved and I waved, and he drove off, so hopefully I'm not in shit for driving equipment now... >_>
I have a feeling though that everything is all good though, since I've been busting my balls and being a good boy at work.
Stephanie is mad today, and I got into a tiff with her. Apparently, I'm not allowed to come upstairs and play on my Playstation when there's nothing on T.V.. Had a fight with her, but I don't care. She's just a bratty sister, nothing more, and I have every right to stretch out in my own home and have some fun for once. Since she's so unhappy today, she wants to be left alone to channel-surf at her leisure.
Tough titty said the kitty when the milk went shitty.
Dunno what else to say. Night guys.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Poor Harding...
Poor Shawn. He's having one hell of a day it seems.
He took some sort of tests today, for what I still don't know. Apparently, having failed one test, whoever is making him take them all automatically failed him from all the others, because it appears to them that Shawn doesn't care about them anyways.
It must be work-related tests, since Shawn mentioned that his moms' boyfriend, who he works with, tried sticking up for Shawn, asking for him to get a second chance at the tests. Now Shawn is getting lectured about it at work from the guy.
He recieved a text from his friend Brenan (No 'D' in the name). Apparently Brenan no longer wants to move out with Shawn, so now Shawn is in a bad mood.
He says that by now he was in a very bad mood, close to losing his cool at work.
There's a type of container called a 'Sea-Can', and it's a big rectangular metal box used to ship cargo by boat across the ocean. Well, Shawn tried closing one that was really rusty and hard to move, and slammed his finger so bad in the doors that he possibly broke the top of his finger. Ouch.
On top of that injury, his mom and her boyfriend are lecturing him about being careless and upset at work.
After a 45 minute lecture about that from his mom, his moms' oldest child called her up with some bad news.
Shawn's Uncle is dying, from what or why I don't know, butright now his stress levels are to the max.
He tried calling me earlier, but I'm not good at comforting people, so I backed out of the phone call. I was busy doing things after all, but still, I felt kind of bad just hanging up so quickly and saying goodbye so readily.
I apologize Shawn, but there really is nothing I can do to make you feel better. I'm a kind of guy who is usually full of angst and depression: I certainly can't help you feel better!
I passed the message on to Jamie, for her to call him if she could. She got kind of an upset look to her face, and told me that she wasn't good at comforting people. Isn't that what I said about myself? So, I don't know if she's e-mailing him, texting him, or choosing not to reply at this time. I have no idea, but, I did pass on the message.
Oh, I'll also have to clarify some info that I told her. When Shawn called me, it sounded like his uncle had already died. Now it seems he's dyING, not dead.
How long he has to live, or even if he IS still alive, I don't know. Shawn has to tell me, next time he can talk.
Me, coming from a huge family stock, have already been to a few funerals, even acting as a Palbearer at one of them. I have a detatched view on death, seeing it as a normal, almost desirable, stage of a well-lived or extremely hard life. Losing someone you care about upsets me, true, but I grieve in a different way. I regret not having more moments, and failing to do this or that, but I get over it, accepting the loss with more insight and wisdom.
For me to calmly tell someone that it's okay that their loved-one is dying or dead...
O_o
Yeah... I can say it easily enough, and feel it even easier, but the damage my own words can have on others is amazingly profound. Hence the years of silence I've had.
I am sorry for your hardships Shawn, and your imminent loss. But life doesn't end for the rest of us, and the only loss is if you don't glean some insight or understanding from all of this mess.
I suggest you look at your life from a bigger picture, like watching yourself from a giant T.V. camera in the sky. Explore your hardships and feelings, and try to see what smallest possible change could be made that would begin to affect your life in a better way.
That's where I'd focus: it'll help you move through the chaos that you're feeling right now, give you a sense of purpose, and perhaps distract yourself long enough for you to ease yourself through the grief in your life.
Good night Shawn, and other peoples. Keep your chin up.
He took some sort of tests today, for what I still don't know. Apparently, having failed one test, whoever is making him take them all automatically failed him from all the others, because it appears to them that Shawn doesn't care about them anyways.
It must be work-related tests, since Shawn mentioned that his moms' boyfriend, who he works with, tried sticking up for Shawn, asking for him to get a second chance at the tests. Now Shawn is getting lectured about it at work from the guy.
He recieved a text from his friend Brenan (No 'D' in the name). Apparently Brenan no longer wants to move out with Shawn, so now Shawn is in a bad mood.
He says that by now he was in a very bad mood, close to losing his cool at work.
There's a type of container called a 'Sea-Can', and it's a big rectangular metal box used to ship cargo by boat across the ocean. Well, Shawn tried closing one that was really rusty and hard to move, and slammed his finger so bad in the doors that he possibly broke the top of his finger. Ouch.
On top of that injury, his mom and her boyfriend are lecturing him about being careless and upset at work.
After a 45 minute lecture about that from his mom, his moms' oldest child called her up with some bad news.
Shawn's Uncle is dying, from what or why I don't know, butright now his stress levels are to the max.
He tried calling me earlier, but I'm not good at comforting people, so I backed out of the phone call. I was busy doing things after all, but still, I felt kind of bad just hanging up so quickly and saying goodbye so readily.
I apologize Shawn, but there really is nothing I can do to make you feel better. I'm a kind of guy who is usually full of angst and depression: I certainly can't help you feel better!
I passed the message on to Jamie, for her to call him if she could. She got kind of an upset look to her face, and told me that she wasn't good at comforting people. Isn't that what I said about myself? So, I don't know if she's e-mailing him, texting him, or choosing not to reply at this time. I have no idea, but, I did pass on the message.
Oh, I'll also have to clarify some info that I told her. When Shawn called me, it sounded like his uncle had already died. Now it seems he's dyING, not dead.
How long he has to live, or even if he IS still alive, I don't know. Shawn has to tell me, next time he can talk.
Me, coming from a huge family stock, have already been to a few funerals, even acting as a Palbearer at one of them. I have a detatched view on death, seeing it as a normal, almost desirable, stage of a well-lived or extremely hard life. Losing someone you care about upsets me, true, but I grieve in a different way. I regret not having more moments, and failing to do this or that, but I get over it, accepting the loss with more insight and wisdom.
For me to calmly tell someone that it's okay that their loved-one is dying or dead...
O_o
Yeah... I can say it easily enough, and feel it even easier, but the damage my own words can have on others is amazingly profound. Hence the years of silence I've had.
I am sorry for your hardships Shawn, and your imminent loss. But life doesn't end for the rest of us, and the only loss is if you don't glean some insight or understanding from all of this mess.
I suggest you look at your life from a bigger picture, like watching yourself from a giant T.V. camera in the sky. Explore your hardships and feelings, and try to see what smallest possible change could be made that would begin to affect your life in a better way.
That's where I'd focus: it'll help you move through the chaos that you're feeling right now, give you a sense of purpose, and perhaps distract yourself long enough for you to ease yourself through the grief in your life.
Good night Shawn, and other peoples. Keep your chin up.
Silent Hill Origins... Ooh, scary... O_o
Well, yesterday, I decided to play more of my new Silent Hill game, since Laurie and Kim were going out.
Jamie though, apparently gets NIGHTMARES whenever I play these games, so I was given STRICT warnings NOT to let her watch me play... >_>
So...
After Kim left, Jamie woke up from her nap, and came downstairs... Just her and me.
She cuddled up on the couch and wanted to watch. Think I can refuse her? Pfft, fat chance! O_o
So, I let Jamie watch me play. Several shrieks and nervous giggles later, she decides that she wants to play Silent Hill 2. So I fetch it for her, pop it in, and away she goes. She does pretty well, considering she's never watched me play it from start to finish. But...
There are beasties that hide under parked cars. Your radio statics, indicating a monster is nearby, but since it's hidden, we have no clue where it is. The thing skritches free from under this van, and Jamie shrieked, throwing aside the controller. I laughed, and she recovered, bludgeoning the thing to death on her own. I'm so proud of her! ^_^
Then I played Resident Evil 2 after, her watching, making me stay up late. I got to the part where you leave the town and reach the secret Umbrella labs. By this time it was wayyy after 11pm. Gave her a shoulder pat/hug thing, then went to bed, her telling me that she'd wake me up if she had a bad dream...
Had fun talking with her these past few days: she's been really happy around me, and it's nice to see her old self again. She'd been sick for so long...
Oh, her cos-play outfit came in yesterday, hers and Stephanies. Did I post about this already?... Anyways, I love it, even if I don't know what anime it's from...
Long black leather leggings and a trench coat, buckles and designs... [Drool]. Makes me want a costume now.
Today...
Today, after a long day at work, she's still happy. I opened my tax return cheque. I'm getting $1314.04 back from the government. I'm happy. ^_^
Jamie AND I got a measly 5% raise, meaning she gets a whopping 80 cents more an hour, and I get 83-86 cents an hour more. Woohoo... >_>
Jamie playfully tattled on me to her mother, telling her that I did something bad. The FIRST thing her mum said was, 'you let him into your room!?...'
Yeah... ~_~
Then, we explained it wasn't THAT (****), it was the fact that she not only watched me play scary games the night before, but that I let JAMIE play as well! Ooh... Kim's a little mad! >_<
Not too terribly mad, just annoyed I imagine.
Meh, whatever. If Jamie says she wants to do something with me, then I don't care what anybody else says: I'm doing it. 'Cuz I love her, very much, and I will do everything I can to make her life happy and bright.
The past few weeks at work, I've been working inside a building at Sherritt called Phos Granulation. It's a building that produces fertilizer pellets, the kind you buy from a gardening store.
It's a tall, hot building, full of noisy machines and large industrial dryers that suck all the moisture out of the salt/fertilizer products that this particular section of the plant makes.
My job has been to remove YEARS of build-up from under one certain conveyor belt, who's belt rollers need servicing. The trouble is, the piles underneath are huge: the old product piled almost up to the belt. (That's 5-6 feet of build-up under there.)
There was a layer of copper sulphate that hadn't been produced in years, not since 1997, and it was one of the UPPER layers in this massive build-up pile.
The product, when it gets wet (from moisture in the air, or anything, etc.), if allowed to re-dry, turns the product from a nice powdery build-up into sandstone/concrete.
This 15 foot long pile of product, 5-6 feet tall, was nearly ALL rock hard.
The location was cramped, hard to get to (climb a scaffolding to reach it), and that 5-6 foot tall pile gradually narrowed down to a 2 foot crawl-space (Yes, the pile tapered down eventually, after 15 feet or so).
The heat from the building, especially from being on the top floor, was a killer. The labour was intense, and I sweated my balls off (quite literally!).
However...
I finished that project today.
WooT!!! ^_^
Anyways, mum is home, so I'm gonna go say hi to her. Laterz!
Jamie though, apparently gets NIGHTMARES whenever I play these games, so I was given STRICT warnings NOT to let her watch me play... >_>
So...
After Kim left, Jamie woke up from her nap, and came downstairs... Just her and me.
She cuddled up on the couch and wanted to watch. Think I can refuse her? Pfft, fat chance! O_o
So, I let Jamie watch me play. Several shrieks and nervous giggles later, she decides that she wants to play Silent Hill 2. So I fetch it for her, pop it in, and away she goes. She does pretty well, considering she's never watched me play it from start to finish. But...
There are beasties that hide under parked cars. Your radio statics, indicating a monster is nearby, but since it's hidden, we have no clue where it is. The thing skritches free from under this van, and Jamie shrieked, throwing aside the controller. I laughed, and she recovered, bludgeoning the thing to death on her own. I'm so proud of her! ^_^
Then I played Resident Evil 2 after, her watching, making me stay up late. I got to the part where you leave the town and reach the secret Umbrella labs. By this time it was wayyy after 11pm. Gave her a shoulder pat/hug thing, then went to bed, her telling me that she'd wake me up if she had a bad dream...
Had fun talking with her these past few days: she's been really happy around me, and it's nice to see her old self again. She'd been sick for so long...
Oh, her cos-play outfit came in yesterday, hers and Stephanies. Did I post about this already?... Anyways, I love it, even if I don't know what anime it's from...
Long black leather leggings and a trench coat, buckles and designs... [Drool]. Makes me want a costume now.
Today...
Today, after a long day at work, she's still happy. I opened my tax return cheque. I'm getting $1314.04 back from the government. I'm happy. ^_^
Jamie AND I got a measly 5% raise, meaning she gets a whopping 80 cents more an hour, and I get 83-86 cents an hour more. Woohoo... >_>
Jamie playfully tattled on me to her mother, telling her that I did something bad. The FIRST thing her mum said was, 'you let him into your room!?...'
Yeah... ~_~
Then, we explained it wasn't THAT (****), it was the fact that she not only watched me play scary games the night before, but that I let JAMIE play as well! Ooh... Kim's a little mad! >_<
Not too terribly mad, just annoyed I imagine.
Meh, whatever. If Jamie says she wants to do something with me, then I don't care what anybody else says: I'm doing it. 'Cuz I love her, very much, and I will do everything I can to make her life happy and bright.
The past few weeks at work, I've been working inside a building at Sherritt called Phos Granulation. It's a building that produces fertilizer pellets, the kind you buy from a gardening store.
It's a tall, hot building, full of noisy machines and large industrial dryers that suck all the moisture out of the salt/fertilizer products that this particular section of the plant makes.
My job has been to remove YEARS of build-up from under one certain conveyor belt, who's belt rollers need servicing. The trouble is, the piles underneath are huge: the old product piled almost up to the belt. (That's 5-6 feet of build-up under there.)
There was a layer of copper sulphate that hadn't been produced in years, not since 1997, and it was one of the UPPER layers in this massive build-up pile.
The product, when it gets wet (from moisture in the air, or anything, etc.), if allowed to re-dry, turns the product from a nice powdery build-up into sandstone/concrete.
This 15 foot long pile of product, 5-6 feet tall, was nearly ALL rock hard.
The location was cramped, hard to get to (climb a scaffolding to reach it), and that 5-6 foot tall pile gradually narrowed down to a 2 foot crawl-space (Yes, the pile tapered down eventually, after 15 feet or so).
The heat from the building, especially from being on the top floor, was a killer. The labour was intense, and I sweated my balls off (quite literally!).
However...
I finished that project today.
WooT!!! ^_^
Anyways, mum is home, so I'm gonna go say hi to her. Laterz!
Monday, May 12, 2008
Happy Belated Mother's Day?
Yesterday was Mother's Day...
Alright. I had an awesome weekend, kinda sorta.
Man, have I been busy! My energies are all but gone, and today, well, it's only Monday... ~_~
For Mothers Day, I took Jamie shopping. We went out, did a bunch of things. She wanted to buy the mums some gorgeous flowers. Me, my plan was to host a BBQ for them. Simple, right?
(P.S. - On a funny note... I'm making lots of spelling errors right now. I spelled Jamie as 'Lamie'. Lol!)
Well, I did a MAJOR cleanup on Mothers Day. See, I LOST MY WALLET... Yeah... >_>
Cleaned my room... Cleaned my truck... Cleaned upstairs...
Found my wallet.
Where?... In one of the alcoves in my desk.
[Facepalm]
Took Jamie shopping, and had fun together in the store. In the candy aisle, I had to literally hold her back from the junk foods. I even tried picking her up, much to her amusement, earning me a loud laugh and giggle. (Kuwaii!!!)
At home, Jamie did up all the cards and stuff, and I started to cook.
Chris and Richard came over to visit, so I played WoW briefly, then let Chris on my computer. It was cold and windy outside, so I had to wear a jacket to BBQ, even with the sun.
I had bought 2 cases of steaks and 18 fresh burger patties. I cooked up 8 steaks and 12 burgers, Jamie had helped me pick out side dishes and salads, and she helped me season the meats.
Chris and I had a big noodle fight, which I won.
I started the noodle-wars by swatting Jamie on the head from behind. Oh yeah, she came out to play! She fought with fury and thunder, but in the end, I walked away, victorious... [Struts his stuff] Had fun repeatedly swatting her butt. She gave up in the end.
Kim came down, eager to fight. 'Hitting my kids, huh?' she'd say, all playful and dead-serious all at once. So, her and I had a fight too. I won! >_< I swatted Kims butt a lot too, so ha!
We ate, and Kims friend Dale came over. We had lots of left-overs...
Mothers Day was great. Unfortunately, I wanted Jamie's dad to come over. But... he said he didn't feel welcome, despite our repeated invites. Oh John... ~_~
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Today. Whiplash at the start of today for being happy and energetic all weekend. Man I'm glad that I did all that I could when I had that power. This morning was ROUGH.
But... It got better, and right now I'm in tip-top shape and state of mind.
Updated a big rp post on one of my sites, talked to thrity people online (wore out now...), and updated my blog.
A few days ago, I decided to order myself a 'better' sex toy. I'm tired of my cheap, useless thing that I have now. I can manage with little privacy, to keep hormones in check (helps when Tony works on weekends now, lol), but IT just isn't enough anymore...
So, I indulged... and am now awaiting a very realistic thing to make me happy. Plus, an extra little thing on the side... (Heh heh heh, no details yet.)
*Link unavailabe, do to the fact that uncomprehending adults may find this material offensive.*
Some other minor details, but like always, I waited too long to post, so now I forgot them all.
Night folks!
Alright. I had an awesome weekend, kinda sorta.
Man, have I been busy! My energies are all but gone, and today, well, it's only Monday... ~_~
For Mothers Day, I took Jamie shopping. We went out, did a bunch of things. She wanted to buy the mums some gorgeous flowers. Me, my plan was to host a BBQ for them. Simple, right?
(P.S. - On a funny note... I'm making lots of spelling errors right now. I spelled Jamie as 'Lamie'. Lol!)
Well, I did a MAJOR cleanup on Mothers Day. See, I LOST MY WALLET... Yeah... >_>
Cleaned my room... Cleaned my truck... Cleaned upstairs...
Found my wallet.
Where?... In one of the alcoves in my desk.
[Facepalm]
Took Jamie shopping, and had fun together in the store. In the candy aisle, I had to literally hold her back from the junk foods. I even tried picking her up, much to her amusement, earning me a loud laugh and giggle. (Kuwaii!!!)
At home, Jamie did up all the cards and stuff, and I started to cook.
Chris and Richard came over to visit, so I played WoW briefly, then let Chris on my computer. It was cold and windy outside, so I had to wear a jacket to BBQ, even with the sun.
I had bought 2 cases of steaks and 18 fresh burger patties. I cooked up 8 steaks and 12 burgers, Jamie had helped me pick out side dishes and salads, and she helped me season the meats.
Chris and I had a big noodle fight, which I won.
I started the noodle-wars by swatting Jamie on the head from behind. Oh yeah, she came out to play! She fought with fury and thunder, but in the end, I walked away, victorious... [Struts his stuff] Had fun repeatedly swatting her butt. She gave up in the end.
Kim came down, eager to fight. 'Hitting my kids, huh?' she'd say, all playful and dead-serious all at once. So, her and I had a fight too. I won! >_< I swatted Kims butt a lot too, so ha!
We ate, and Kims friend Dale came over. We had lots of left-overs...
Mothers Day was great. Unfortunately, I wanted Jamie's dad to come over. But... he said he didn't feel welcome, despite our repeated invites. Oh John... ~_~
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Today. Whiplash at the start of today for being happy and energetic all weekend. Man I'm glad that I did all that I could when I had that power. This morning was ROUGH.
But... It got better, and right now I'm in tip-top shape and state of mind.
Updated a big rp post on one of my sites, talked to thrity people online (wore out now...), and updated my blog.
A few days ago, I decided to order myself a 'better' sex toy. I'm tired of my cheap, useless thing that I have now. I can manage with little privacy, to keep hormones in check (helps when Tony works on weekends now, lol), but IT just isn't enough anymore...
So, I indulged... and am now awaiting a very realistic thing to make me happy. Plus, an extra little thing on the side... (Heh heh heh, no details yet.)
*Link unavailabe, do to the fact that uncomprehending adults may find this material offensive.*
Some other minor details, but like always, I waited too long to post, so now I forgot them all.
Night folks!
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Happy (Slightly Belated) Birthday Shawn Harding!
Yesterday was Shawn Hardings' birthday. He recently turned 19 years old, so, gratz to him! >_<
He cut off his long hair and now has this, omg... I hate it. It looks better with him having his long hair. Really.
Shawn is the guy who has been completely infatuated with Jamie for ever, and all he really wanted for his birthday this year was to hang out with her non-stop. So he is.
He came over yesterday, and Jamie gave him a hug and a birthday card. Then, I dunno... I think I went shopping with them for a bit, where he bought a few Xbox games.
I think Shawn Harding, Shawn Hale, Jamie, and me all went to the city for some food at a truck-stop place that was surprisingly awesome (like a mini-airport), and we ate and ate and ate. Afterwards, we came home, and I gave Shawn his room to have fun and hang out with Jamie.
Downstairs I hung out with Tony and his girlfriend, and Tony's other friend Cody. I ended up giving Stephanie a footrub and Cody a backrub last night, one after another. Cody and Birthday bot Shawn Harding slept in my bed, so I slept on my brother Tony's couch.
Today I'm supposed to take Shawn and Jamie in so Shawn can get a wolf tattoo. He's hanging out with muh sis, so I came down to update a blog or three.
My friend Scott Johnson had a baby boy a few days ago, and I just found out. He called me up this morning, so I'm going to go to his place later on tonight, and take some video footage for my YouTube account.
I might take some video of Shawn getting his tattoo today. Heh heh...
Yesterday while Shawn was renting and buying games, I stumbled across Silent Hill: Origins for the PS2. I bought it up, but can't play my Playstation until after Shawn leaves. It's his special day after all...
Mum wants to get me my piercing, one day...
I told her yesterday that I'll start paying $600 a month for rent, and not just $500. She protested, but I guilt-tripped her, telling her that she doesn't want me to feel like part of the family and stuff. She laughed and agreed to it, calling me an asshole for learning how to guilt-trip from the best. Yup, I did... O_o
Yesterday I told Jamie a truth. I took her out after work to go buy Shawns b-day card, and get an icecream and stuff. She was talking a lot with me, like we sometimes do, getting a lot of personal, private stuff off of our chests. We're good talking partners.
Anyways, she was saying that recently a lot of guys were noticing her lately. I said, have you looked at yourself? You are gorgeous Jamie, really hot. Of course guys will go wild over you: you just don't realize it yet.
She doesn't want a relationship with anyone, she thinks... Ah, nevermind. One of those things she talks about with me, so it's private.
I spent a hundred bucks on myself, and now I have to wait for a few weeks for a package to arrive. Can't wait to open it and blog all the details! n_n
One of my artists finished a pic I commissioned. Her comics I bought for her finally reached the Netherlands. This isn't the first comic I requested, and yeah, I'm happy with her work so far.
I continue to RP online and chat with people all over the world. I spend a lot of energy maintaining my posts and site updates, and work drains my body during the day. Weekends are my days off, usually, but we're going through Shutdown at the plants right now. I may have to work overtime a few dyas these upcoming weeks. Already did stay late last week, a 13 hour day, building a truck ramp out of dirt and sand. Yay!
Anyways, today isn't over yet. See ya all later!
He cut off his long hair and now has this, omg... I hate it. It looks better with him having his long hair. Really.
Shawn is the guy who has been completely infatuated with Jamie for ever, and all he really wanted for his birthday this year was to hang out with her non-stop. So he is.
He came over yesterday, and Jamie gave him a hug and a birthday card. Then, I dunno... I think I went shopping with them for a bit, where he bought a few Xbox games.
I think Shawn Harding, Shawn Hale, Jamie, and me all went to the city for some food at a truck-stop place that was surprisingly awesome (like a mini-airport), and we ate and ate and ate. Afterwards, we came home, and I gave Shawn his room to have fun and hang out with Jamie.
Downstairs I hung out with Tony and his girlfriend, and Tony's other friend Cody. I ended up giving Stephanie a footrub and Cody a backrub last night, one after another. Cody and Birthday bot Shawn Harding slept in my bed, so I slept on my brother Tony's couch.
Today I'm supposed to take Shawn and Jamie in so Shawn can get a wolf tattoo. He's hanging out with muh sis, so I came down to update a blog or three.
My friend Scott Johnson had a baby boy a few days ago, and I just found out. He called me up this morning, so I'm going to go to his place later on tonight, and take some video footage for my YouTube account.
I might take some video of Shawn getting his tattoo today. Heh heh...
Yesterday while Shawn was renting and buying games, I stumbled across Silent Hill: Origins for the PS2. I bought it up, but can't play my Playstation until after Shawn leaves. It's his special day after all...
Mum wants to get me my piercing, one day...
I told her yesterday that I'll start paying $600 a month for rent, and not just $500. She protested, but I guilt-tripped her, telling her that she doesn't want me to feel like part of the family and stuff. She laughed and agreed to it, calling me an asshole for learning how to guilt-trip from the best. Yup, I did... O_o
Yesterday I told Jamie a truth. I took her out after work to go buy Shawns b-day card, and get an icecream and stuff. She was talking a lot with me, like we sometimes do, getting a lot of personal, private stuff off of our chests. We're good talking partners.
Anyways, she was saying that recently a lot of guys were noticing her lately. I said, have you looked at yourself? You are gorgeous Jamie, really hot. Of course guys will go wild over you: you just don't realize it yet.
She doesn't want a relationship with anyone, she thinks... Ah, nevermind. One of those things she talks about with me, so it's private.
I spent a hundred bucks on myself, and now I have to wait for a few weeks for a package to arrive. Can't wait to open it and blog all the details! n_n
One of my artists finished a pic I commissioned. Her comics I bought for her finally reached the Netherlands. This isn't the first comic I requested, and yeah, I'm happy with her work so far.
I continue to RP online and chat with people all over the world. I spend a lot of energy maintaining my posts and site updates, and work drains my body during the day. Weekends are my days off, usually, but we're going through Shutdown at the plants right now. I may have to work overtime a few dyas these upcoming weeks. Already did stay late last week, a 13 hour day, building a truck ramp out of dirt and sand. Yay!
Anyways, today isn't over yet. See ya all later!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Crazy...
For a while now I wasn't allowed to drive at work on the plant site.
See, I did a little 'stunting' when I got back, just some minor stuff (doughnuts on a dirt road), and a 'friendly co-worker', A.K.A. ambitious 19 year old shit-head with a house of his own already, reported me.
Now, I was reported to a headshot named Larry, and Larry has had it out for me since day one. Larry is the head of the maintainane department at Sherritt, so... yeah.
He said that I'm not 'sposed to drive on the plant. Period.
However...
I've been on my bestest behaviour. I've been good, subservient, self-demeaning... Basically everything BUT groveling and sucking on his cock to make him feel better.
THIS WEEK our crew is a LOT smaller than normal. 4 guys got fired, just like that. Split. They all shared a house, all relied on one unreliable driver to get to work, and all bring their troubles from home to work. 2 of the four are really awesome, the other two are total dip-shits. (Don't worry, this IS related to my driving story...)
Anyways, they skipped work, because their driver and other room-mate got stoned on a weekday, so the boss said for them all to stay at home. Permanantly.
The other two good workers from that household, if they can get a ride to work, are allowed to come back. Otherwise they can't make it in, so they're gone.
Back to my story... Since most of the crew is gone, and it's shutdown at Sherritt (Big plant project time), most of our crew is always out doing other things. Jim is helping drive an A-Frame (type of tow truck), Jamie is always helping scaffolders, Doug is always on a loader/skid-steer/forklift, and 'B' (an old witch) is our gardener. That leaves me, and a couple of fresh faces.
I have NO CHOICE but to drive.
So... All this week, I've been driving at work. Larry knows this, and seems okay with it. Looks like my long, hard road to 'redemption' is paying off.
I had to kill a bird at work yesterday. Except I had no tools to kill it with. It was sitting on the ground, watching me, ready to fly. Well, I flew into IT instead. I gave it a good swift kick to stun it, and then I smashed my fist into the back of it's head. Needless to say, when a reddish gob of brains is dangling out of a squashed skull, it's bound to be dead. I threw it out, my co-workers stunned that I did that with my bear, err, bare hands.
Tomorrow is Shawn Harding's birthday. He's turning 19, I believe. Right now Jamie is on MSN talking to him. She never goes on messenger unless she wants to contact someone. The rest of the time, she's unreachable. You should feel happy Shawn, that she's going through the extra effort to reach you. I'll wish you a happy birthday tomorrow.
Richard, Jamie's brother, seems upset for some reason.
Now, I know that he's like me, uncertain about the future and about what his role in it will be. I'm sure he's lonely, frustrated, and sad as well. He's been coming by a lot this week, which is okay, but he seems so sad. There's nothing really I can do to help him either I'm afraid. I mean, how can I help him when I can't even help myself?
I gave him some advice a while ago, suggesting he make his own blog to help articulate his own feelings out in the open. He says he might have started one, but he won't share it with anyone. Apparently he's got too much to hide right now.
Today at work Jamie offered to buy me a lunch, which I happily agreed to and accepted. I hadn't eaten ANYTHING since Tuesday (today is Thursday). On Tuesday, all that I ate was a late meal of cold, leftover steaks which I microwaved for about 10 seconds. Wednesday, nothing.
Usually I don't eat breakfast or lunch. Coming home after a 13 hour day with no food, and finding out that the family was too lazy to make even a simple soup, wasn't cool. I went to bed, tired, unhappy, and hungry, too stubborn and proud to make myself anything. Stupid, I know, but it made sense at the time.
So today, with no breakfast or lunch, an offer for food sounded amazingly great.
I thanked her for her generosity and concern, and am now in-debted to repay her somehow.
I feel like I should buy Shawn Hale a replacement I-Pod. He shared a bunch of music with me, which I stored on my computer, same file format that I got from his I-Pod.
He deleted all his songs, trying to do something, and came over, asking to re-copy all those songs and put them back on his I-Pod.
Well, I copied and pasted them onto his I-Pod. Should work, I mean, that's the same way I got them from his thing. I didn't modify anything at all, I swear.
Apparently, even if you take them off his I-Pod directly, you need an I-Pod installer software thingy to put them back on.
Now, I corrupted his I-Pod, to the point where it's FUCKED. I told him I'll get him a replacement one. Maybe myself one too, for work or something.
Tony re-arranged his room, yet again. This time back to the way it was before! >_<
Now his bed and stuff is out of line-of-sight, meaning I have a modicum of privacy back. I are happy!
He also tore out the carpet in his room, tired of the cats, who are shedding, coughing hairballs in his room. Poor guy... So he tore out his carpet, and is back to having just cold concrete again.
Anyways, going to bed soon. Both Harding AND Jamie were on MSN today. With Harding, that's common. But Jamie?... O_o
I made sure to say hi and pester her, just 'cuz I can! >_<
Tomorrow after work I will be taking Shawn Harding into the city somewhere so he can get his first tattoo. Hmm, wonder what it'll be...
Night folks!
See, I did a little 'stunting' when I got back, just some minor stuff (doughnuts on a dirt road), and a 'friendly co-worker', A.K.A. ambitious 19 year old shit-head with a house of his own already, reported me.
Now, I was reported to a headshot named Larry, and Larry has had it out for me since day one. Larry is the head of the maintainane department at Sherritt, so... yeah.
He said that I'm not 'sposed to drive on the plant. Period.
However...
I've been on my bestest behaviour. I've been good, subservient, self-demeaning... Basically everything BUT groveling and sucking on his cock to make him feel better.
THIS WEEK our crew is a LOT smaller than normal. 4 guys got fired, just like that. Split. They all shared a house, all relied on one unreliable driver to get to work, and all bring their troubles from home to work. 2 of the four are really awesome, the other two are total dip-shits. (Don't worry, this IS related to my driving story...)
Anyways, they skipped work, because their driver and other room-mate got stoned on a weekday, so the boss said for them all to stay at home. Permanantly.
The other two good workers from that household, if they can get a ride to work, are allowed to come back. Otherwise they can't make it in, so they're gone.
Back to my story... Since most of the crew is gone, and it's shutdown at Sherritt (Big plant project time), most of our crew is always out doing other things. Jim is helping drive an A-Frame (type of tow truck), Jamie is always helping scaffolders, Doug is always on a loader/skid-steer/forklift, and 'B' (an old witch) is our gardener. That leaves me, and a couple of fresh faces.
I have NO CHOICE but to drive.
So... All this week, I've been driving at work. Larry knows this, and seems okay with it. Looks like my long, hard road to 'redemption' is paying off.
I had to kill a bird at work yesterday. Except I had no tools to kill it with. It was sitting on the ground, watching me, ready to fly. Well, I flew into IT instead. I gave it a good swift kick to stun it, and then I smashed my fist into the back of it's head. Needless to say, when a reddish gob of brains is dangling out of a squashed skull, it's bound to be dead. I threw it out, my co-workers stunned that I did that with my bear, err, bare hands.
Tomorrow is Shawn Harding's birthday. He's turning 19, I believe. Right now Jamie is on MSN talking to him. She never goes on messenger unless she wants to contact someone. The rest of the time, she's unreachable. You should feel happy Shawn, that she's going through the extra effort to reach you. I'll wish you a happy birthday tomorrow.
Richard, Jamie's brother, seems upset for some reason.
Now, I know that he's like me, uncertain about the future and about what his role in it will be. I'm sure he's lonely, frustrated, and sad as well. He's been coming by a lot this week, which is okay, but he seems so sad. There's nothing really I can do to help him either I'm afraid. I mean, how can I help him when I can't even help myself?
I gave him some advice a while ago, suggesting he make his own blog to help articulate his own feelings out in the open. He says he might have started one, but he won't share it with anyone. Apparently he's got too much to hide right now.
Today at work Jamie offered to buy me a lunch, which I happily agreed to and accepted. I hadn't eaten ANYTHING since Tuesday (today is Thursday). On Tuesday, all that I ate was a late meal of cold, leftover steaks which I microwaved for about 10 seconds. Wednesday, nothing.
Usually I don't eat breakfast or lunch. Coming home after a 13 hour day with no food, and finding out that the family was too lazy to make even a simple soup, wasn't cool. I went to bed, tired, unhappy, and hungry, too stubborn and proud to make myself anything. Stupid, I know, but it made sense at the time.
So today, with no breakfast or lunch, an offer for food sounded amazingly great.
I thanked her for her generosity and concern, and am now in-debted to repay her somehow.
I feel like I should buy Shawn Hale a replacement I-Pod. He shared a bunch of music with me, which I stored on my computer, same file format that I got from his I-Pod.
He deleted all his songs, trying to do something, and came over, asking to re-copy all those songs and put them back on his I-Pod.
Well, I copied and pasted them onto his I-Pod. Should work, I mean, that's the same way I got them from his thing. I didn't modify anything at all, I swear.
Apparently, even if you take them off his I-Pod directly, you need an I-Pod installer software thingy to put them back on.
Now, I corrupted his I-Pod, to the point where it's FUCKED. I told him I'll get him a replacement one. Maybe myself one too, for work or something.
Tony re-arranged his room, yet again. This time back to the way it was before! >_<
Now his bed and stuff is out of line-of-sight, meaning I have a modicum of privacy back. I are happy!
He also tore out the carpet in his room, tired of the cats, who are shedding, coughing hairballs in his room. Poor guy... So he tore out his carpet, and is back to having just cold concrete again.
Anyways, going to bed soon. Both Harding AND Jamie were on MSN today. With Harding, that's common. But Jamie?... O_o
I made sure to say hi and pester her, just 'cuz I can! >_<
Tomorrow after work I will be taking Shawn Harding into the city somewhere so he can get his first tattoo. Hmm, wonder what it'll be...
Night folks!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Friday Night
WooT! Work is over this week!
Friday. Done. Been really busy, but the last three days at work wasn't so bad. I've been shoveling salt and salt-powder buildup from inside a large storage building. Shovels and air-lines with air-wands at the ends of them, to dust off a large tower staircase that leads up to a high-up catwalk that runs under the roof.
Today, Shawn Hale, Chris (He came to visit us!), and Jamie and I were all fooling around with my camcorder. Took some videos, one of which I'm uploading on my YouTube account right now.
Lots of goofing around, it's great. Went shopping in Shawns car, and took maybe 5-6 videos, small ones. Good stuff.
We just got back from neon-bowling from Sherwood Park (Edmonton area). The four of us went. We were supposed to take Chris' friend Dylan-or-something along too, but he turned out to be a no-show. Makes me feel bad, because we left Richard at my mums house, right after he popped in to say hi to us all. I thought he could of come, but I guess we were already on our way... I dunno. Shawn was driving, not me.
Despite scoring a few strikes, my overall bowling skills are unpracticed at best (since High School!). It was an awesome night out, one that had non-alchoholic beverages foro nce. I liked it, and would do it again, as long as it was a crowd.
Took my camera, but the battery was almost dead, so... no shots of us bowling. Ah well! ^_^
Dropped Chris off at his friends, and I got dropped off, so Jamie and Hale could go get some food, and TALK about stuff. Oooh... >_<
I kinda talked earlier with Jamie at work today, with a co-worker, and it seems that after all, Jamie right now has no intention to move out. Apparently she's dealing with Sam positively, more-or-less, so right now it's all good. She wants to focus on her schooling, and since she's got about a year of home schooling to do, she's gonna try to juggle her current work schedule of work and school for now. Working a few days a week, studying the rest. Good for her.
I get the weekend off, and since Jamie and Tony both are working this Sunday... Well, I have the house to myself, more or less. Heh heh heh... Undie parade! Whee! >_<
I'm gonna run 'round the house nekked! Snoop through everyones STUFF, then, I'm gonna drink milk straight from the JUG! Ha ha ha ha ha...
Or, maybe just sleep in, mebbe look at some pron, then mebbe have a nice, long, hot soak in the tub. Oh, I maybe also will probably most likely almost definately go swimming again tomorrow. Mebbe.
I read Hardings' blog. I check it almost everyday, despite his lack of constant updates. Apparently he's sick, physically, having chest and stomache pains and breathing difficulties. My own first guess is an ulcer from stress, since his life is full of some bullshit and lots of stress I imagine. I doubt it's a cancer, maybe could be some form of infection, but I think it's an ulcer. Could explain some of his pains.
He's upset because he didn't even know the reasons he was told not to come over for a week. He found out through my blog, so, I'm sorry to him for him finding out things that way like that.
I guess it's cause she works a full time job and schooling, and when she gets home, she wants her private time. Plus she has other plans and things going on... I dunno, are we all supposed to schedule one day a month to hang out with her? I can't even offer any clues or advice on this area.
I'm RP-ing again with my online buddies. I have to go make some love to a cat-girl. Mreowww! ^_^
Later folks!
Friday. Done. Been really busy, but the last three days at work wasn't so bad. I've been shoveling salt and salt-powder buildup from inside a large storage building. Shovels and air-lines with air-wands at the ends of them, to dust off a large tower staircase that leads up to a high-up catwalk that runs under the roof.
Today, Shawn Hale, Chris (He came to visit us!), and Jamie and I were all fooling around with my camcorder. Took some videos, one of which I'm uploading on my YouTube account right now.
Lots of goofing around, it's great. Went shopping in Shawns car, and took maybe 5-6 videos, small ones. Good stuff.
We just got back from neon-bowling from Sherwood Park (Edmonton area). The four of us went. We were supposed to take Chris' friend Dylan-or-something along too, but he turned out to be a no-show. Makes me feel bad, because we left Richard at my mums house, right after he popped in to say hi to us all. I thought he could of come, but I guess we were already on our way... I dunno. Shawn was driving, not me.
Despite scoring a few strikes, my overall bowling skills are unpracticed at best (since High School!). It was an awesome night out, one that had non-alchoholic beverages foro nce. I liked it, and would do it again, as long as it was a crowd.
Took my camera, but the battery was almost dead, so... no shots of us bowling. Ah well! ^_^
Dropped Chris off at his friends, and I got dropped off, so Jamie and Hale could go get some food, and TALK about stuff. Oooh... >_<
I kinda talked earlier with Jamie at work today, with a co-worker, and it seems that after all, Jamie right now has no intention to move out. Apparently she's dealing with Sam positively, more-or-less, so right now it's all good. She wants to focus on her schooling, and since she's got about a year of home schooling to do, she's gonna try to juggle her current work schedule of work and school for now. Working a few days a week, studying the rest. Good for her.
I get the weekend off, and since Jamie and Tony both are working this Sunday... Well, I have the house to myself, more or less. Heh heh heh... Undie parade! Whee! >_<
I'm gonna run 'round the house nekked! Snoop through everyones STUFF, then, I'm gonna drink milk straight from the JUG! Ha ha ha ha ha...
Or, maybe just sleep in, mebbe look at some pron, then mebbe have a nice, long, hot soak in the tub. Oh, I maybe also will probably most likely almost definately go swimming again tomorrow. Mebbe.
I read Hardings' blog. I check it almost everyday, despite his lack of constant updates. Apparently he's sick, physically, having chest and stomache pains and breathing difficulties. My own first guess is an ulcer from stress, since his life is full of some bullshit and lots of stress I imagine. I doubt it's a cancer, maybe could be some form of infection, but I think it's an ulcer. Could explain some of his pains.
He's upset because he didn't even know the reasons he was told not to come over for a week. He found out through my blog, so, I'm sorry to him for him finding out things that way like that.
I guess it's cause she works a full time job and schooling, and when she gets home, she wants her private time. Plus she has other plans and things going on... I dunno, are we all supposed to schedule one day a month to hang out with her? I can't even offer any clues or advice on this area.
I'm RP-ing again with my online buddies. I have to go make some love to a cat-girl. Mreowww! ^_^
Later folks!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Post #100!!!
Alrighty. Where to begin?...
Um, okay. Now that Sam is 'settled in' again, things are KIND of okay... and still kind of NOT okay...
I mean, sure, she's a threat to some things in my life right now, but it seems that everyone is adjusting to the changes, and will adapt to survive for now. Meaning no one is immediately planning on moving out/going crazy/killing each other yet. Phew!
My mom.
As a cab driver, she only 'gets' a little bit per trip. She has to pay for her gas from her own earnings, pay her company from her earnings, etc etc etc...
Now, with gas prices going up yet again... She's basically almost working for free.
So, mum may just have to quit her job.
On top of that, rent is going up. Instead of 590, it's going up to 650 a month. Not a HUGE hike, but still...
If Jamie moves out, and Laurie loses/quits her job... Yeah... I'm shouldering it all.
Anyways, regardless of what happens, I still intend to come down to B.C. this summer. Just for a visit. My ideas for schooling may be delayed, and I may even need to consider strongly the importance of money and stuff.
Haven't heard from Shawn Harding in a bit. He must hae upset Jamie or something. What little I was told was, that he had been staring at her, and he's kind of not supposed to come over for a few days until Jamie cools off. I dunno. Once again I'm in the dark. [Shrugs]
I payed off my credit card bill completely today, after cashing my cheque! (WooT!)
Now, I have a bit of cash in my bank, and I also paid a payment on my Alberta Health Care. I'm kind of happy about that.
After work, I took my sis to her bank, then after she took me out for a burger (she owed me one!), and stopped at two fast food places for different things, then came home. Fun fun!
My brother is upset, because he has to wait until next week for his cheque to process. He had plans with his girlfriend Kayla this weekend, and he's broke. Aw, sorry bro. I'm kinda broke too. I can't touch my money at all. He'll just have to delay his plans with her for the next weekend.
Steph is becoming a pain. I spoiled her with free foot/leg/back/neck rubs, and now she thinks 'cuddle time' means 'massage time'. All I want to do, when I'm tired and needful for affection, is to curl up and sit nicely, maybe watch a movie or some T.V. together with someone. But oh no, she makes me work while I watch stuff! O_o
Ah well, maybe I'll get her to clean my truck out for me or something. There's not much else she can do for me.
Um, it's late, and I can't post for much longer tonight. So, off to bed I go. Later y'all!
Um, okay. Now that Sam is 'settled in' again, things are KIND of okay... and still kind of NOT okay...
I mean, sure, she's a threat to some things in my life right now, but it seems that everyone is adjusting to the changes, and will adapt to survive for now. Meaning no one is immediately planning on moving out/going crazy/killing each other yet. Phew!
My mom.
As a cab driver, she only 'gets' a little bit per trip. She has to pay for her gas from her own earnings, pay her company from her earnings, etc etc etc...
Now, with gas prices going up yet again... She's basically almost working for free.
So, mum may just have to quit her job.
On top of that, rent is going up. Instead of 590, it's going up to 650 a month. Not a HUGE hike, but still...
If Jamie moves out, and Laurie loses/quits her job... Yeah... I'm shouldering it all.
Anyways, regardless of what happens, I still intend to come down to B.C. this summer. Just for a visit. My ideas for schooling may be delayed, and I may even need to consider strongly the importance of money and stuff.
Haven't heard from Shawn Harding in a bit. He must hae upset Jamie or something. What little I was told was, that he had been staring at her, and he's kind of not supposed to come over for a few days until Jamie cools off. I dunno. Once again I'm in the dark. [Shrugs]
I payed off my credit card bill completely today, after cashing my cheque! (WooT!)
Now, I have a bit of cash in my bank, and I also paid a payment on my Alberta Health Care. I'm kind of happy about that.
After work, I took my sis to her bank, then after she took me out for a burger (she owed me one!), and stopped at two fast food places for different things, then came home. Fun fun!
My brother is upset, because he has to wait until next week for his cheque to process. He had plans with his girlfriend Kayla this weekend, and he's broke. Aw, sorry bro. I'm kinda broke too. I can't touch my money at all. He'll just have to delay his plans with her for the next weekend.
Steph is becoming a pain. I spoiled her with free foot/leg/back/neck rubs, and now she thinks 'cuddle time' means 'massage time'. All I want to do, when I'm tired and needful for affection, is to curl up and sit nicely, maybe watch a movie or some T.V. together with someone. But oh no, she makes me work while I watch stuff! O_o
Ah well, maybe I'll get her to clean my truck out for me or something. There's not much else she can do for me.
Um, it's late, and I can't post for much longer tonight. So, off to bed I go. Later y'all!
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